it’s taken me till now to calm myself,
i don’t recall the last time i was that petrified.
i take everything in calm stride
but i feel my mind is eating me up
i am still scared.
is this what my creativity is?
if so i don’t know if i can harness
it’s terrifying where it goes
i feel that i am going to be physically sick
i’ve dodged it for years
yet, i feel it sneaking up on me again
pity me no
i wish i could just run to the hills
climb up a mountain
just sit and watch
and i want to sleep for ages
listening to the hyms of the sages